Fatherless | letterstothesky's Blog

Other down side to my future wedding is not having my father-daughter dance. Another reason why I miss my Dad. He won't be able to see me grow, or my life. Its depressing to think about. Weddings overall make me depressed. Just a thought that crosses my mind, everytime I see the father daughter dance.They're lucky that they have that moment with their father. I wonder what everything would be like if he was still around. I believe everything wouldbe different..losing him was painful, and God knows I'd do anything to have him back or at least to talk to him. Tell him that after he passed away, he left a gap in my life that could never be refilled. Words couldn't describe any emotion I feel towards my fathers death. It was a pain that no nine year old should feel. I believe that moment, rhat day changed everything.it changed me. I matured quickly and I don't want to feel that relationships will ever be my thing. Is it possible that the pain of my fathers death caused me to have deep trust and commitment problems? Either way, father or not I guess ill always be this way..